I'm feeling that same holiday dread and had a long entry typed out, which I lost and I'm not quite sure how. I hadn't even hit "done!" yet.

Like my usual idiot self I'm in tears over it and I really don't have the strength to generate a do-over right now.

To everyone who has left me a note or a message elsewhere:

I'm sorry. I haven't been very good lately about keeping up with them but I swear I'll answer them all later today or tonight.

I hate losing that entry. It was full of things that needed to be said and I don't want to sit here crying twice trying to get it all out before I explode. But now I'll have to.

I wish I felt like this about the holidays.